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first-14-4-2005.

2005-04-13T20:20:00.000-07:00

sadd-
-b.r.o.k.e.n-
h.e.a.r.t

father.
LORD
miie is really speechless for everythi0n'g
miie is hurtt.
badly hurt.
sniff.
where cann' ii findd him?!
i lost him forever.
todayy iis a terrible dayy' for miie.
hated everone attitude
includin. myself.

scared tat one day ii wouldd cutt.
m.y.s.e.l.f
.
.
.

dreams**

2004-12-12T06:13:00.000-08:00

ii- dream offff`.
GOD tokin tto miie dirrectlly...
i dream of .-
being jus a simple gurl` who could play all` i wan.
i dream 0f.
me ownin all te animals in` te WORLDD`.
WOW!!!
i dream 0f meetin my prince charmin.
in front 0f miie..
-givin miie flowetrs.
**grins.
blurp!!`**
hees.sorrie.
miie dream 0f
.my own dreamed house.
livin wid everyone.
camp always wid my friends-`.
everyone being cl0se tt0 each other.
hmmp.

yea.yea.
better get of miie dream**.
before.
miie fell of te chair.
yupps.-

19-nov-2004

2004-11-20T07:14:00.000-08:00

mie will` alwaxs REMEMBER tis day.
**sadd.
FATHER,, tis is te date tat my favourite dogg died.
HE DIED FRM KIDNEY failurr.
FATHER,, i jusss` coulddnn`tt stop blamin` myselff.
i cause ALL of tis.
cause it is my RESPONSIBILITY TO TAKE GOOD CARE OF HIM.

[[**-i dot **BIG HEAD as my dog since im` kindergarden.
my whole family lurfed tis CUTE,,NICE dogg.we traet him very well.
me REALLY LURVED HIM alot.
no-one could understand how miee` feel now.
a dogg` who grow up wid me.
and im` te one who saw HIM died.
being buried...past mermorries really HURTTS ALOTT...he play wid us.me fed him.walked him.play wid him.bath him.carried him wid my own hands.he was luked a baby whom i had.
my family said tat im` their mother of doggs`.
as a mother of them,,im` responsible of their health n` everything.
me felt helpless at att time.
hope tat me could do something to ease his pain.

rather be te one having kidney disaesse.

HE [[woudd` alwaxs be te best dogg i hav ever own.

**lurfe u always,,
your mother of doggs.

birthdaii todaii!!!0.o-

2004-11-10T06:51:00.000-08:00

tonight i finally went through my birthdaii.
all i ccould say abbt tis daii is ...-
AT LAST??!!
funn.nice,,GREat!!

-finally 1333,,
to me 13 is te `GREATEST TIME`for a teenage gurL`.

tere ought to be adventures,,
-funn,,
risks,,
choices u mus make,,
try new thingss.
LEARN n`eww` in my BRAND new life.!!!!~

now i might as well continue my jorney `AS A LIFE OF A 13-YEaR-oLd.!!!

YOHoO!~

[[**-WISH TAT I COULD LEAD A LIFE LUK A NORMAL fammily...]]

1o november`-20o4-+

2004-11-09T18:35:00.000-08:00

TODAY IS
MY BIRTHDAY!!!-**

FINALLY REACHED TO TIS DAI.
AT FIRST,,THOUGHT TAT ON MY BIRTHDAY,IT WILL definitely be A FUN,,HAPPIEXZZ.THINGG.
b0tt.

bleah it is not as nice as i have ever dream of.

in my imaginative dreams.,,..

i DREAM of my [[bai ma huan zhi]].

knowin tat wont ever happened on me.,,

i dun mine at all.

askin myself...

WHO IS HE???

??!!!-++

**CONFUSED-.

maybe i should jus- remained as myself.

a gurl- who is jus too simple-.??!!~

but i might as well say.

HAPPY BIRTHDAII,,DoGgIE.

[[8//11]].

2004-11-07T19:04:00.000-08:00

today damn sian.
bet tat tis year birthday would be my life most borin one lohz.
haiz.**saddie.
now in skool usin com**- damn sian.
feelin tired-**
sadd-**
dumb-**
**-feelin blurs
blurs-**
blurs-**
blurs-**
HMMP!!-**
totally SIAN-**
nothin to do..

SADDIE**

WHO COULD HELP ME??!!

HOPE TAT A MIRACLE WOULD HAPPEN TO ME.

LUK

**AN ANGEL SAVIN ME!!!!

STOP DREAMING!!!!~

DOGGIE-**!!!!!!!

erms-00**unlUcKy dAy oF MiNe!__+5//11//2004.

2004-11-04T23:09:00.000-08:00

today hav gb meetin for te disscusion on next year sec 1 orientation..
hAiz-**.
didnt manage to go.
GOT **CRAMP! **hurt.
sian.today teemper NOT GOOD!!** ssaddie_++

still **[KOCK!]
MY PRECIOUS DOGGIE HEAD ON THE SHELTER BAMBOO!!!~
BAD LUCK!
HAIZ**-
CANT BLAME ANYONE.
ONLY GOT MYSELF TO BLAME LOHX.
bad doggie!-
**sniff-
bad doggie-
**sniff-

memories HURTS sometimes.--

2004-10-29T07:58:00.000-07:00

lots of memories hurt me when it reminnds of things tat happened in te past...
-misunderstanding wid FRIENDS.
-discomfort in my FAMILY sometimes
-STRESS on studies.
-RELATIONSHIPS
-no more liao ba.~bleah-
slowly overcome all tis and -doggie
is kind of FREE after all exams!!!yah!!!~

a memory for year 2004.

2004-10-29T07:37:00.000-07:00

todai is skool last day of tis whole year.sad-+
did i tell u about te day when i first reach tis brand new yuying sec??
to me te first day is kind of awkard in some way,,i nearly lost my way in skool.hahas-++
i first thought tat te skool is soo nice,,big,,friendly....
BUT
later on,,find it small...but Father told me sumthing
how BIG or small the place is,,it doesnt matter at all.as long as we have lots of fun wid each other,,which kept memory in tis place.
got closer wid everyone,my friends,,teachers & everyone.i really lurve them all.++---~MUACK!

drill CAMP

2004-10-24T07:24:00.000-07:00

back from the drill camp..dunno how i felt for the camp afterwards...part of it hurt by somethings and parts of it troubled by things..
most of my Gb **friends mighth tink tat tis camp is rellaxin and fun but to me ..,,i felt very stress up abt things..
first day was kind of fun..learnin new drills~and so on**__
**second day ,,we were punished for some thind tat is gals stuff,,..~bleah+and after tat we continue te drills manual and later on um te scarin part..

DRILL TEST & COMMANDIN!!!

my drills to me was kind of bad tis ti me on..my commandin was worst..mus really buck up liaox...
goin to prastice hard on my drills,,& commandin..to not let anyone down..
**hope tat FATHER WOULD BLESSED EVERYONE.

wakin up,,doggiE.!!!~

bLuRs-[[total CRAZY-]]

2004-10-19T21:14:00.000-07:00

ME aCtually also dunno wat me doin on EARTH-...but later on me found back my own senses and NOW i noe wat me doin...[[FULLY-RECOVER]]!!!~hees.
tis fri me goin for drill-camp..hmmps-++**should be fun wanta ba.me felt sought of EXCITED**.
DAYS PASSED quickly and fri be also goin to check our exam-SCRIPTS!!!sob**-sadd for doggie AGAIN.
me also dunnno if i luk tat guy anot...but it is up to FATHER,,himself.,, to DECIDE for mme,,if both of US are fated to be TOGETHER,,WE WOULD definitely TO BE TOGETHER AGAIN..I BELIEVE IN FATHER,, myself.JUS NOE TAT I REALLY WISH TE BEST FOR HIM++THE ONE I LURVE.++**

recent life-++

2004-10-17T07:54:00.000-07:00

so long neva write blog liao*[[really miss it-++]]
today is fun for doggie**_went out to :PS,FAREAST & ORCHARD:wid pig,duck & cow.later on..me went home wid duck...heees**-
durin the days which i didnt write any blog...lots of things actually hppened to me.my exams jus over and now relaxin lots.haiz..but something inside me reaal bottles up all my feelins and me rally dunno wat is goin on..me now also dunno whether i luk tat person anot,,lohz..haiz.[[-saddie-]]hope tat te Os ppl exams would go smoothly and God would blessed all of them.~++

::++wE aR sOo nEaR ,YeT OuR HeArTs aR So fAlL ApArT...++::

2004-08-24T07:05:00.000-07:00

i lUv hIm yEt hE LeFt mE ON A lOnLy PlAcE.....IsNt aNyOnE GoIn tO TaK Me hM????!!!I DiD NoT NoE TaT LiFe wAs sO MiSeRaBlE...I lUv hIm yEt hE TrEaT Me tIs wAy....bUt i sTiLl fOrGiVe hIm....nO MoRe ++lOvE!!!++>......

::_dAYs.._::

2004-07-31T07:37:00.000-07:00

DaYs PaSt bY...As mY SeC 1 DaIs pAsSiN EaCh dAys.....i lUv mY FrIeNzS.....TeRe iS NO hArm sAyIn....trYiN To tReAsUrE All Te thInGs tAt i HaV....HeEs....i DuN tIInK i LuK AnYoNe eLsE NoW...ReAlLi gUiLtY AbOuT Zx aNd Jj.sOrIeS, gUyS......

fRiEnDlY_NeSs

2004-07-27T07:20:00.000-07:00

HaHaS...I TiNK We,gB GuRlS ArE Te mOsT FrIeNdlY...OnEs!!!HaHaS....We sAyz lOtS Of *HiEs....eVeRydAiS......hEes...cAmPs aRe fUn!!!EsPeCiAlLY Te yOuTh caMp!!!i WaS KiNd oF HoRrAy!!!~sMiLeX....WhEn mY PaREnTs aSk mE HoW WaS Te cAmP....HaHaS....tE Gb tRaInInG CaMp...wAs nIcE....WE GURLS....Go SuN-TaNnEd...hAhAs....tE mOsT FuN & ScArIN OnE Is tE COcKrOaCh...bLaHs....

~gUyS OuT TeRe hElP Me wRiTe tAgS If u sAw mY BlOg..